Attitude & Acupuncture

Hello. I wanted to update you on the pain issue. I still don’t know what’s going on, but I’m really thinking it might not be endo as I can get rid of the feeling with some specific yoga moves, massage, and a change of position. I am working hard on maintaining a positive attitude right now. I may not know how to control the pain totally, but I do have total control over the thoughts I hold. So, instead of feeling like I will never feel better, I am thinking that my health is being restored. Further, each effort I make to feel better is being viewed as a step on the path to restoring my health. I might not know exactly how restored health is going to happen, but I know this: I am finished with illness. I don’t care if I get some new diagnosis to add to the list of diseases and syndromes and disorders I’ve been racking up since 2006. I AM STILL  FINISHED WITH ILLNESS. Again, no matter what is going on in my body, right now, PMDD free and totally sane, I have total control over my thoughts. I am using them wisely.

I have grown very tired of doctors offices and so am trying some alternative approaches. I had my first acupuncture treatment last Sunday. So strange. The needles didn’t hurt at all but I suggest you hold very still after they are in. I made the mistake of arching my back a little and then one spot hurt a lot.

Within two minutes of having the needles placed I was bawling face down in the little massage table face holder thingy. No tissue to be found and the acupuncturist had left for a little while. I couldn’t blow my nose or wipe my eyes. I just watched the tears fall down to the carpet. It felt so good to cry. It was a tremendous release. I guess it’s common to cry with this procedure (have any of you had acupuncture?).

I did feel better after I left the wellness center. Not 100%, but better. And I haven’t had a day that has made me cry from pain since going there on Sunday. I’ll continue trying it for a little while and let you know how it goes. I haven’t made it this far to give up on myself and a healthy body!