Attitude & Acupuncture

Hello. I wanted to update you on the pain issue. I still don’t know what’s going on, but I’m really thinking it might not be endo as I can get rid of the feeling with some specific yoga moves, massage, and a change of position. I am working hard on maintaining a positive attitude right now. I may not know how to control the pain totally, but I do have total control over the thoughts I hold. So, instead of feeling like I will never feel better, I am thinking that my health is being restored. Further, each effort I make to feel better is being viewed as a step on the path to restoring my health. I might not know exactly how restored health is going to happen, but I know this: I am finished with illness. I don’t care if I get some new diagnosis to add to the list of diseases and syndromes and disorders I’ve been racking up since 2006. I AM STILL  FINISHED WITH ILLNESS. Again, no matter what is going on in my body, right now, PMDD free and totally sane, I have total control over my thoughts. I am using them wisely.

I have grown very tired of doctors offices and so am trying some alternative approaches. I had my first acupuncture treatment last Sunday. So strange. The needles didn’t hurt at all but I suggest you hold very still after they are in. I made the mistake of arching my back a little and then one spot hurt a lot.

Within two minutes of having the needles placed I was bawling face down in the little massage table face holder thingy. No tissue to be found and the acupuncturist had left for a little while. I couldn’t blow my nose or wipe my eyes. I just watched the tears fall down to the carpet. It felt so good to cry. It was a tremendous release. I guess it’s common to cry with this procedure (have any of you had acupuncture?).

I did feel better after I left the wellness center. Not 100%, but better. And I haven’t had a day that has made me cry from pain since going there on Sunday. I’ll continue trying it for a little while and let you know how it goes. I haven’t made it this far to give up on myself and a healthy body!

diagnosis (Mondays appt- newest update

First, Thank you to everyone for wishing me great thoughts!

I had the polyp removed which didn’t hurt, thankfully, because I am in my 2 wk hell time, tapered from my meds, and in a pretty good amount of pain already.

For anyone that hasn’t seen (LOL, i think I posted about it), I have tapered myself off of the Prozac and Topamax for now while I am having these issues, and a lot more physical pain.  My reasoning: I want to be able to see exactly where my body is without the meds tinkering me one way or another.

I did taper faster than I would recommend anyone which has been difficult, especially since I usually taper quite a bit slower than even the doctors recommendation, but I am doing pretty okay right now.

My husband and I had already talked before the taper and I made him aware of some places I may need him to step in with regards to my patience levels during this time.  So, pretty much, the nausea, the migraines, weird body feeling, feeling like I caught something (ill).  I figured doing the process during a 2 wk hell time anyway would only add to what I already go thru, so that’s the time I chose.  I know for some that would be the exact time they would stay away from. :)

Other than just being a bit tired, restless and the headaches I am doing fine, but who’s to say if it’s the taper or the PMDD, it’s all the same.

Sorry for rambling, it’s pretty late and I am just finally able to get back to the computer and site to get back to work on it.

Anyway, the sonogram showed I have a rather large cyst on my right ovary, so though that doesn’t sound pleasant in the least, I did walk away feeling better.  I was reading my body correctly, I knew something more was going on, the pain wasn’t just the PMDD getting worse and now I know.

I will be going back in next Thursday to review pics of the sono in detail and everything that he and I have already discussed in our previous appts and decide my next best move.

Also, back to the research. :)  I don’t know much about cysts other than I am in quite a bit of pain from it, so any thoughts from all of you incredible Women, I am always open for ideas and discussions.

Off to get some sleep.

Stef

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