PMDD rears its ugly head, again…
Unfortunately, I had an anxiety attack last night, the first one I have had in I can’t even recall how long.
One of those, chests aching, conversations going on in your head, annoyed with everything attacks.
Why you ask? All of you with PMDD know this answer: Who in the heck knows!
I was in bed watching tv, the whole house was asleep so I wasn’t stressed out, it just happened.
Of course because I am off my meds I knew this was a possibility, but it has been so long, I hoped not. I really don’t like me with PMDD without meds, but I know the end result will be better if I can see where my body is, without meds. I will continue fighting thru this mess in hopes to have some better answers next Thur at my next appt.
I guess I just needed to rant here for a bit. PMDD once again irritating me to no end!
I hope the rest of you guys are hanging in there.
Stef
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Ashley
May 22nd, 2009 at 3:25 am
I’m so sorry to hear about your panic attack. I know how frightening that is! I applaud you for going without your meds to see how you do. I’ve tried that before and it was a nightmare. I have a prescription for the lowest dose of valium that I take on an as needed basis. My doctor gave it to me for my PMDD “2 week hell”, so I could stand myself and my family could stand me! I’ve had the same bottle since February. I notice I only reach for it during my weeks of PMDD. I don’t want to become physically addicted to it, so I try to only use it when absolutely necessary. On average I would say twice a day maybe 7 days a month. Today was a very bad PMDD day for me! I took a valium and my mood improved considerably. I don’t know that it would work that way for anyone else, but I actually felt more energized and less anxious. One would think it would make me sleepy, but it is the exact opposite when my symptoms are rearing their ugly head. I hope your appointment goes well on Thursday and you don’t have to deal with anymore anxiety. Thanks for keeping us posted. Hang in there!!!
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Deborah Quenneville-Clairmont
May 25th, 2009 at 9:01 pm
How do you seriously go through this month after month without going insane? I have finally figured out that what I have been suffering from since about a year after the birth of my 6th child is PMDD. I recently moved home to Canada after living in California for 22 years and I email my ob/gyn of 18 years and told him what has been going on, all my symptoms (all 11 out of 11) and he said “case closed you have PMDD, imagine what your life would have been like without all the pregnancies and nursing”. Still have yet to be officially diagnosed over here in Canada with my new doctor but their best guess of what is going on with me “somatization” is for the birds. If any of them had bothered to listen to me when I told them that I felt absolutely fantastic when I was pregnant and nursing and I feel really great for 2 weeks of the month and them WHAM 2 weeks of utter hell. I don’t know what I am exhausted from more 4 years of trying to figure out what is wrong with me or living with the PMDD undiagnosed or maybe both. Anyway just venting, woke up yesterday unable to get out of bed so my “bad” 2 weeks have just started and I don’t know how I am going to make it another 12 days or at just 44 years old another 6 years with this!
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May 26th, 2009 at 3:04 am
Deborah,
Seriously! I wonder the same damn thing myself.
I think because I know what it is and I help other Women by supporting them and they do the same for me, I am able to continue.
It was so much worse before PMDD was acknowledged (though it’s still not really out there or even legit in a lot of peoples eyes, including doctors). I felt like I was literally just crazy and plenty of docs were okay with letting me know it!
I think of the pregnancy and nursing freedom I had as my most awesome times!
I believe the exhaustion comes from both things you mentioned. Trying to figure out what you are living with for so long, fighting thru and explaining it over and over to people and just flat out living with it, period.
I know a lot of Women start really searching for answers when they hit 35 and 40+ because peri menopause and then menopause start hitting and our PMDD gets worse.
Thrilling, I know!
Hang in there, we are definitely here to listen.
Stef
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