Life w/ PMDD

Well…

Here it goes. I have been designing and re-designing this site and Power Over PMDD because this month has sucked as far as PMDD goes. I haven’t had the desire to write, even though this would be an excellent time to write so other’s can see what a month of hell with PMDD is like.

Writing when you feel like CRAP is incredibly difficult, feeling like crap and having kids AND trying to write, LOL feels almost like an impossible chore, rather than fun.

My husband has been travelling constantly this month with work, this means all 4 kids, pups, house, dinners, baths, homework, bedtime…Life is all on me.
Of course if my PMDD hadn’t been pushing 2-2 1/2 weeks rather than just the 2 weeks, I probably wouldn’t be so extreme about the situation. It’s just so damn hard right now.

I hate feeling like ‘Woes is me’, but if you have PMDD you will know exactly what I am talking about.

If you want to just know the whole-hearted truth of all truths, I am pissed off at the world this month. Not angry with my family, but the world.

Errrr… even right now I don’t feel like writing any more. I will continue tomm with my sob story, thanks for listening.

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Hi all.

Sorry I have been MIA. I am working on another PMDD site, I will still be keeping this one.
Poweroverpmdd.com is going to have a lot of resources to  help with PMDD, it won’t be as personal as lifewpmdd.com.  It will have resources to help you live happier and healthier, even with PMDD. Healthy eating resources, exercise info… more of an informational site, rather than my personal life w/ pmdd.

Some things will overlap, but I didn’t feel that Life w/ PMDD should have some of the info that I will be adding at Poweroverpmdd.com .

Life w/ PMDD will also take a small turn, I will be making it more personal rather than general life w/ PMDD, it will be more about my life w/ PMDD.

I hope you guys will stick around and take a chance to check out Power Over PMDD too.

As you can see, I changed the design, again…. I made life w/ PMDD more like a journal to follow thru with my thoughts on how I want the 2 sites to compliment each other.

Thanks again for sticking around,

Stef

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I don’t know how many of you have come across this, but I would love to know what you think about it.

Basically, for anyone that hasn’t, you can make some of your posts cost, you have a teaser section to show what it will be about and then they pay if they want to continue reading.

Does this tick you off or do you think it’s okay for someone to do this?

One place I ran across this was when I did a Google search for dizziness. One ‘medical’ type site that came up gave some free advice and then a short blurb to get me interested and then wanted to charge for the good part of the info.

I found it at a dog info site too. It gave articles/advice and then offered a section to pay if I wanted more info.

Could this be used instead of doing an e-book with more personal info or is it just down right annoying?

What’s your opinion?

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Wow! It seems like it has been forever since I posted. Things were crazy around here, PMDD out of control, but with good reasons.

We had a stomach virus go thru our home and with 6 people, you can only imagine. Right after that I had to take my 8 yr old to the hospital because his ear was killing him during the night. Then my 3 yr old started running a fever, but nothing else.

MADNESS I tell you, LOL.

Every one is well now! Lack of sleep, feeling completely cruddy and everything else just causes more stress which triggers PMDD.

I finally started and all is well.

I did start tanning. I hated to do it, but this winter weather is just making things even more difficult for me. Unfortunately I am a completely different person during the Summer than the cold weather months.

I absolutely cannot stand being cold, I LOVE my sunshine, the heat, working in the yard, walking my dogs.

So, I go tanning and lay in that heat bed. I LOVE it and feel so much better. I read an article about people and ‘weather issues’, I know there is a real name for it, but can’t remember it. LOL, isn’t there a name for everything these days!

Anyway, for those living up North that have a long period of cold weather to try tanning (use Sunscreen of course) to help get over the depressing weather blues.

Nothing more to update on other than I am keeping up with all of you guys blogs just didn’t take the time to do mine.

I have begun writing though I haven’t decided if it’s going to be an e-book or how I am going to do it, it’s Real Life w/ PMDD. It will have coping strategies, and just tons of real info on what it’s like living with PMDD.

I get so tired of reading info from doctors that don’t have PMDD or are Men and never struggled with any of it.

It will basically be a much more in depth look, a continuation of my blog.

Wish me luck!

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I have noticed the last couple of months that during my PMDD 2 wk time I am especially hard on myself. I am not in the best shape of my life, but I exercise (or at least regularly up until 2 mths ago when it became freezing outside), I have 4 kids that I nursed, LOL, and I am 34 yrs old. I maintain a size 4-6.

During my descent 2 wks I look in the mirror and think, you better get your butt out there walking regardless of the weather…You need it for exercise and to keep your PMDD under control.

Now, during my bad 2 wk time, I look in the mirror and think What in the world happened to you! I point out EVERY little thing that is wrong with me, from head to toe and I mean it, all the way down to you need a serious pedicure.

Why is it that during PMDD times it is so hard to be okay with yourself? Is it because everywhere you look, on TV, in magazines, everywhere, there are commercials talking about getting skinny, take this pill, do this diet, are you not happy with yourself, etc…

Is it that when your hormones are so out of whack that you just can’t see past the blah’s and you just get super hard on yourself?

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I don’t know if any of you have seen this show yet, it’s by the blond guy from Queer Eye for the Straight Guy, his name has slipped my mind. Basically, he is helping Women look their best NAKED. It’s not a sexy show or anything, if you get a chance I recommend everyone watching it.

He talks about Body Image and explains to Women that what you THINK you look like isn’t always what you DO look like. He even lines about 8-10 Women up in their undergarments and tells you to look at all of them and place yourself between the two that you think your body type fits. It’s amazing where some Women place themselves.

I saw one show where a Woman was about 4 Women off from where she should be. It reminded me of myself of how I look at myself from one week to the next.

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Another show is the Dove commercials, here is a great one to show you exactly what I am talking about. If you have a daughter, especially a daughter that may end up with PMDD, I suggest your start working now on positive body image. I know I have to start now and this is why I am paying closer attention.

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PMDD is a killer of moods, I don’t know about you, but for me I don’t have any extra attention during this time to give to anyone else, I feel like crap as it is.

I also don’t have the gooshy-gooshy feeling inside to spend time with anyone, so that puts romance right out of the picture.

Since PMDD occurs 10-14 days before your cycle begins, and then you are on your period, the good days are limited. I have had to
come to terms with it, and come up with other ways to show how much I love my husband. Regardless of the fact that I am not in the mood, your spouse still needs to be reminded how much you love him.

Since Valentines is on the way I thought this would be a great time to share a few romantic tips that I have found useful.

These, of course, do not only have to be done during PMDD, but anytime and can really help rekindle the love.

1. Write a little love note and place it in your husbands car the night before, he will see it when he heads off for work the next morning. If he packs a lunch (or you pack it for him) then place it in his lunch.

*I like to sometimes write, “For your eyes only” and get creative on the inside part of the letter. (You get the picture)

2. As a teenager it is so easy to get starry-eyed and all goo-goo, ga-ga over a boy. Think of the things you did back then. You know you did this (even if you don’t admit it)…Make a CD/tape of you and your husbands favorite love songs.

3. Take a hot shower and when the glass gets all foggy write something like ‘I love you’ or Tommy+Stefanie. Anything goofy that shows you were thinking about him. When he gets in the shower and the glass fogs up, the words will reappear.

4. Make dinner for the kids and then after they go to bed you and your spouse light candles and eat alone.

5. Wear lingerie to bed, he will be surprised when he walks in, and it helps put you in the mood when you feel beautiful and sexy.

6. Spray your sheets with linen spray, they carry it at Bed, Bath & Beyond and even at Walmart. I love fresh scents, nothing too perfumy, it makes me feel so relaxed.

7. Make your husbands favorite meal and dessert.

8. This won’t work for everyone I don’t think, but my husband loves it, yours might too. I file his nails and take care of his eyebrows. It lets him know I am thinking about him, doing something for him, taking care of him.

9. Rent a movie HE likes AND sit with him during the entire movie. This works with his favorite sport too. Most of the time if my husband is watching his Westerns, War movies, or sports, I go and watch TV in the bedroom. Try just spending time watching what he likes.

10. Turn on your favorite music (not anything too fast and loud) and lay in bed together and relax. Since I have 4 kids this is an awesome way for my husband and I to wind down, enjoy each other’s company w/o the TV or computer. It’s amazing how close you feel to your spouse when you do just lay there w/o saying a word.

I hope some of these ideas help you. When I do little things like this it helps me take a little of the guilt off of myself (that I place there) for not being more intimate, more often. At least he realizes how much I try to show him love, and that makes me feel better.
Enjoy a couple of Valentine Recipes

Share what romantic tips you  have that work, I am always looking for fresh *and exciting* new ideas.

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WOW! When I go off my meds it’s of course always at a time when I feel like, I can do it without them, on top of the world, feeling great time.

Then, I go into my crashes, unfortunately, quite quickly.

As I posted previously I started back on my Prozac- Thank goodness, for everyone’s sake! LOL

I am finally feeling like my mind isn’t on the constant go with good and bad thoughts, mostly bad. No more of the everything is driving me crazy & insane feeling, and much less anxiety.

Now, if they could just come up with something to get thru the physical pains.

I hope for all of you out there that you have some sort of calm this week, it has been a blessing for me to finally get it back.

Now, just to get off my butt and get back into exercising- This cold weather is keeping me from getting anywhere near the outdoors. Diet, eating right and back on track is my 2nd MUST. Since I moved back to Texas I haven’t been as good as I normally am, gotta kick it in to gear! As we all know, PMDD is so much better with the two, exercise and healthy eating.

Yummy Free Healthy Breakfast Smoothie Recipes

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I have been meaning to write this, but things have been very up and down this past month.
I felt great like I said when I first came off the meds, but it has been a very difficult month, in and out of my time.

I was going to start taking the Topamax and actually took a couple and decided I would start back smaller. Before I ever took the Topamax I was only on Prozac. So, as of yesterday I am back on my 30mg of Prozac.

I have said a ton of times before that my body is just one of those that I do better on my meds.
(Read past postings before commenting to exercise, vitamins, eat healthy, etc…)

Right now this weather isn’t helping, it’s cold and dreary here in Texas, I would do so awesome living in Hawaii!

To be completely honest, this past month has been REALLY bad. I function as far as cooking dinner, getting kids to school, etc… But I hate the person I am. Horrible thoughts go thru my mind (no I’m not doing anything to myself permanently), but thoughts that I don’t want are there. I am so irritable and am short with my kids, I can’t and won’t deal with that one.

I cry a lot. Just sitting I may start crying.

I don’t want to be this way and have once again seen the real deal, I need my meds. If the Prozac alone works I won’t add back in the Topamax. We will see how it goes.

I will write more on it later, but it really all just comes down to if you need them to live a better life, take them…And that is me.

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Update: 1-23-08
This is my new FAVORITE design ever. I hope you guys enjoy it as much as I do. You can actually see a lot of really neat, unique designs at designdisease.com

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Am I driving you all so crazy yet, LOL.

I just can’t find the right design that ‘feels’ right. I want for Women to come to Life w/ PMDD and it feel personal, yet still have great factual information.

Bare with me, all the info is staying the same and in the same spots, just different colors and designs.

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Usually places don’t have the correct spelling of Stefanie for a meaning, this one did.

What Stefanie Means

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don’t always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don’t have as much going for them as you do. You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You’re most comfortable when you’re far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are loving, compassionate, and ruled by your feelings. You are able to be a foundation for other people… but you still know how to have fun. Sometimes your emotions weigh you down, but you generally feel free from them. You are usually the best at everything … you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic “Type A” personality. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It’s easy to get you excited… which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don’t stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

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